Nancy praying nothing will happen to you....
i care about you so much youve done so much in my life for me youve respected me not like other friends youve shown me wat a true friend is really all about your there wen im down and sad help me through my problems and you are there when im happy or sad or mad your there to help me through it all and make me smile again even if its you the person that makes me sad or disappointed youve done so much i cant even remember all uve done and ive barely started to meet you everyday in school i look forward on talking to you and seeing you smilee i lovee how this is like i have someone i care about and i have someone ALWAYS there for me wen i need her this is all ive waited for youve done that and more so when im sad about you ditching or fighting or ICE cream runs haha  i just wanted you to know that im only sad or mad cuz i care about you that i dont want anything to happen to you if i could id be the one to take all the blame if u were in trouble even if u did get caught up id be the VERY FEW to visit u everyday in the hospital or whereever you may be whenever your sad or watever keeep being you and i hope I HOPEEeeee that nothing bad happens or shit happens and we will never talk to eachother anymore cuz i know for a fact itll break me apart and i knowwwww this may seem all of sudden but i just want to tell you how much u make me feel and NOOO i dont like you haha dont worrie hehe but i think ur hot =) haha SHH dont tell u no who hehehe but yeahhh watever were good friends and i hope well stay like that forever and i hope no person in the world will come between this and ruin it cuz i know i will never hurt you or take advantage of you nancy keep living and think of ur actions cuz your actions affect the people around u expecially me i worry everyday about you i know you dont need a second mom beside you but i dont want you to get hurtt or anyhthinggg your one in a million(only one) and i wish to keep it that wayyy stay the same nancy cuz your a good person and i respect you as you have respected me... see you at school....only one....

-Bryan

haha my dog is licking my binder full of import models LOL haha...

I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your  presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me You used to captivate me By your resonating mind Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone....ALL ALONG....

Life Struggles

Moving pictures of my past flowing in my head every second

For years and years they’ve played

Blank and hallow in the knees ready to collapse

Empty with holes each dug deep each bearing a grudge and twisted

People cannot see right through me as if I was like a dirty old rag sponge
Feelings crying of my past stretched so thin
Under the sky full of dust filled with broken trust and treachery

The lessons you thought me I learned were never true

They point their finger at me again
I point the finger at them
Are you a friend or are you a foe

But in the end it all doesn’t matter

Life is a struggle and we live it
You live what you’ve learned

I try so hard put aside all of me trying to stand beside my reflection

I see two green up right rectangles my life'’s at pause even when I open my eyes

All falls all can not overcome it everything things blank as paper

There’s a place so dark you cannot see the end

Screaming showing its self consuming confusing controlling

I  seem to struggle in search for myself
Through the knacks and turns of the twisted thoughts I withhold
What do I do to ignore them behind me
Do I follow my instincts blindly

Feelings mixed flowing into my head like a hurricane

The rest of the day stands still I try to pretend the past isn’t real

I don’t know how the pressure was fed
Eating away inside of me like feeding maggots hungry for more

I know how it feels like to have a voice in the back of my head

My worlds crumbling down on top of me I’ve felt this way before

But in the end it all doesn’t matter

Life is a struggle and we live it
You live what you’ve learned

Day to day struggle it seems nothing is certain
There’s a place so dark you can’t even see the end

Men and women with their own story to tell
Everybody has a face inside of them waiting to come out

A face they hold inside watching and controlling

Faces fighting their lives to wake up every morning

Faces fighting faces in differences

Faces waiting to die

People will risk it all in life just to survive

Fighting each other just to live

Pushing in a crowd of hundreds fighting to breathe

Like a pack of hungry lions in aden

They will live and they will learn

There will be mistakes but none are worst then chances they don’t take

But in the end it all doesn’t matter

You Live You Laugh You Love You Learn

Life is a struggle

-Bryan Cheng